Wow, a life of a writer. Am gonna start marketing this site by letting other people know about it. I don't know how successful am gonna be, but I have to "go out there to the real world". LOL.
So I'll be right back, because am just gonna do just that.
A lot happened over the weekend. A lot happened, because even at tiresome, I kept pushing to "make things happen", lol. M-Studio was fun that I was a different person on stage. To some degree, it was goofiness, and I don't think the whole thing was effective. But performance and stuff, I do try to study it. I was able to sing "Hello" by L. Richie with the live band. And it's fun when am hitting the notes, it's that moment when I like performing.
A lot just happened that it really started Friday morning, I was already at the mall trying for loafers, and my old shoes were boots that loafers would just formalize things.
This week, gonna do a lot of exercises, because I think am gaining weight again. Just easy exercises like jogging.
The thing with the weekend was that, it was tiring. But it was fun, because the jokes were coming in, there were just a lot of moments. I almost decided to extend this weekend, but I was really tired that I just slept in.
Am just gonna deal with things individually with God, because it's always toil here in Canada - but so far, there's really much sufficiency, I really noticed that the good life is still there. Few people told me over the weekend that in Canada "it's all work". I was tired, but the experiences I really went through were sufficient. I love the people am with, and all the jokes are just laughable.
It's this sufficiency am really happy about, because it is a week that's gonna have challenges, but God suffices it, so am like, "It's not gonna be bad."
The weekend. Went through so many activities that it got me tired now. I think what was fun was the Miami-New York basketball game last night, am sure a lot of people saw it. I love the jocking and jostling of position, even Chris Bosh getting an offensive foul trying to post up on a New York big man had me thinking "That's an offensive foul?"
In my opinion, basketball will be basketball. I think these type of activity will always be intense. I remember then, I mean, TNT even showed the Miami and New York rivalry with everyone from Larry Johnson, Allan Houston to Alonzo Mourning, and I remember watching those games, and it's funny with how Pat Riley's face has changed. I was actually saddened to see him "with that face", because I always thought of him as Armani, and dude who'd make ridiculous antics trying to motivate the team. But yesterday was different, that it was my first time to see him for a couple of years, and he doesn't have that zeal where he's sitting just disinterested with everything.
I was in a lot of places locally that I really learn life in different aspects. I was with companions yesterday, and at his house he had the famous Van Goh cafe painting, and I tried to warm the conversation that he'd testify on the message of the painting. But it was different, because I thought he was trying to warm me up for a testimony. I shared a story with how we got the painting, and how much we got it for. But I was particular with the painting, because first of all, it's very popular, and I studied that painting in detail, I believe I understand every fibre of that painting. The problem was, I thought about it this morning, what's the technique colour on the ground! :) So I started having ideas that may be it's a space ship, yeah, odd, I just don't understand where orange would come from along with all kinds of colour. I thought about how it just rained, and perhaps it's the reflection, but there's all kinds of colour there. I thought about it again this morning, and I was like, "Yeah, coffee is life." The painting is an exibition of the cafe, the rest of the painting is dark, but that's classic life, there's a lot of stories with Tim Horton's where basically people feel anew when walking into the shop. And I've grown to understand that coffee is a big deal to people, because I drank a lot too,
The evening was sports night, and it was in Stouville which also out skirts of GTA to the point where one area there is literally ghost town. It didn't bother me first, but when I thought about the scary jokes, "Frigg, it is scary here." I started acting odd, and I really tried to scare the people at the back, I was going monster, man. Haha! Something with horror, I admit I am tempted to watch and read horror material, but it's in that moment when am afraid when it becomes really regrettable. I've been scared then, and it would take me weeks to lay off of it, I hated it.
The weekend was fun, am trying to not depend my life on activities where it's this godliness, right? But just coming across with people... I find life odd, because when you're not doing anything, it's boring, but when you do things, they're such a struggle. Singing practise was like three hours on Saturday, and am like, "Am sleeping early, am tired." Next day, I didn't feel right that I really wanted to go walking, good thing there was sports night at the companion's house.
Anything profound or life changing didn't really occur over the weekend, I was just surprised how good the Miami-New York game was, because you're dealing with pros, and each of them have unique talents, and if you let it clash, magic, baby.
There was a lot of issues of this day, mainly because I was going through so much difficulty.
There's a period of time when I told God that I had no more ideas for the day, but ultimately, I didn't see that as the only problem, it was in a way where I had health problems. Mental health is crucial just as any health in our bodies.
Writing's great, this type of material is just not the greatest right now. I think there should be a variety; am open to other stuff, but I dunno.
I don't have an uncontainable mind though where I can be versed on many things. Like the stuff that goes around my mind are pretty common, perhaps advanced, but not much in a way where it's gonna blow a lot of people away. What dominates my day is really music. I have noticed that when I engage in singing, it is a great experience. I missed my singing practise last Saturday, and for this Sunday's, am not the singing leader anymore. I don't entirely stress and worry this reality of mine with the position I am, but I have learned to love performing. I mean, it's not a big deal, but I think for people to respond on a positive way does make the approach (of singing) much more luring to take.
I know, to some degree, environments, atmosphere, and functions that goes on. I understand that when people are at church, they're looking for a particular experience. That one to two hours they're there in the building, they're hoping that it'd be special.
But I always have iffiness with music. I have tried my best in performance time with the congregation, but I understand melody, harmony, I mean, I understand how it affects my life. Like right now, am listening to Veteran's Day by Weezy, Ross, and Birdman, and am amazed how I've grown to love this song. Weezy's murk is great, so as Ross's bass voice. Birdman is off to that bluesy type, and I also love his "game".
Music is really powerful when it becomes inspirational, I've always purchased cds @ HMV, but it was Jodeci who really made me sing. I was already singing on the choir in highschool starting in grade nine, and I didn't really care being up on stage, I would just hold my copy and look down, I was genuine with the Lord that it was all out of thanksgiving, but the whole thing went routine, and I didn't view it as a life changing experience. But my ear was trained, in my opinion, because when Jodeci came out with their albums, I wanted to sing really bad.
Am not gonna be arrogant or hot dogging this type of transition in my life, there's no conceit involved, I just find it that it's been a long ride with music. It's funny that I was just singing in the shower and such. But there were times then that it got to calculating sequences in songs, I mean the whole shabang. I do keep praying about it, because I want this music minded in me to remain.
K-CI's really great that even after all these years, he has still kept his voice. I find the whole thing inspirational. There's a lot more I wanna do with my music life. Like I wanna get on stage and just go bananas on stage. Am thinking with Stevie Wonder's "Lately", just wanna go up there, and say "'Cuz this time could, could mean goodbye", and sing it with Ric Flair/Macho Man wrestling tone, you know? :)
My realizations in life came off funny when I started dealing with speech. I say this, because Ric Flair was (or is) a good talker. I loved his whole approach to wrestling. I think of him every now and then, and I love the talk presentation.
Writing this, I already feel music won't touch people's hearts. I think music is there to just take care of our boredom, which is good, am not gonna say that in a vain way, boredom is a serious issue, and music tends to break us out of that problem. But when the music stop, that's really where all the issues are.
The Highlights of My Day
So back to intensity with Starcraft 2, I mentioned here with the Japanese player basically dealing my infinity to twelve, fifteen seconds. So as I try to mend the broken pieces, am slowly getting back to the game, and being patient with the units on how they're gonna be made along with their behaviour. It's shocking battle.net because the game is programmed to be more competitive. So you could assume what goes on in games where basically there's panic now. This game is known for its trashing talking, but right now, people are just dealing with smiley faces. I find myself also very supportive with my teamates, but the desperation is there, it's gotten difficult.
The game I played last night was uncanny where my team lost again. Before the war, I was told that there'd be mass units, and no understatement with that, there were a lot of soldiers. I wouldn't even go into the details of how I thought I was gonna win the game, because if unharmed for ten, fifteen minutes, I naturally think my team has won, because we're that good too. But this is a new breed, and my teamate even with the strongest unit was overwhelmed with the mass, and he had to retreat, I basically went in for the suicide.
So it's uncanny now with battle.net, I was feeling good with my ranking where am fourth in the Bronze league, but with the new patch, there's really no point of it, where basically am just dinner.
My situation is just hard, with battle.net again, because it has affected my instincts, it's in a way where I can cry on any given second. It's so difficult right now where I can cry.
I do keep thinking of the Japanese guy to the point where I was watching shaolin, kung fu, and samuria online. But I really thought he was intelligent with his strategy. He firmly had ground units, and he positioned himself on the map for a ground attack. And yes, I was there with my ground attack really ready for a celebration. And what I learned was that, he didn't push his units to deal with my base, he kept himself hidden. So at this point, am getting more angry. But I learned that you deal with the production of units, and you build stronger armies and get ready for destroying the base. I thought it was classic samuria.
I've been focused with this game that am not dealing with my physical exercise anymore, I basically did push ups yesterday, and I thought I was an Olympian.
But I deal with writing, I don't know if this has any signifance to you, but this is really my life right now.
There's isn't really much to say right now. I think it's a challenge to write something that is marketable. Am at Facebook, and I showed a map of where I travelled yesterday. The evening was great that I was able to watch two shows, one was with Donald Trump thinking of going for Pres. of the United States. What's gonna happen now is that, am gonna go around the net, and actually promote him. The other treat show was the All-Star game. That was the second time I watched it that I saw more stuff than watching it first time. I think Boston's really trying to bring down Lebron James, I don't mean in a bad way, they're trying to throw him off. I think with the All-Stars is that, it's really for the fans. And there's a number of players who don't view a win a big deal. But I was interested with seeing the relations with each other, and am learning that there's really much friction, and am just waiting for the playoffs to start,
I told my friend how I got killed with a Japanese player at Starcraft 2, so now, am learning Japanese culture. I was on my phone, and I browsed their smiley site, and it's totally different than ours. I think it's an interesting culture, because there's so much to learn from them.
