• Hard day so far, because there's always void in life
• Am still learning life
• There are keys for survival
• But heaven is the main destination - perfect life
• Went around the city today that I didn't purchase much
• I dropped off friends at the airport, and I wanted to fly too
• But it's this survival mode that I have to be in, life's hard
• Listening to Jeremy Camp right now that it's been Rick Ross all day
• Pretty much a calm day
• I don't know what else to do in life,

• Tired mainly because I was getting twenty minutes sleeps
• I don't know what it is with sleeping that makes it so hard to do, am blaming stress
• M Studio was just laughter Friday night, and it carried through Saturday
• A couple were joking, but they were not laughing with their jokes, lol
• The spectators were laughing, and I was one of them
• The balut was still good (at M), and crispy paka was also good, a bit fatty, but I was ready to die then, my friend was making fun of me for already being fat
• I was with a bud, and we're talking about cars all the time, it was a downer, because there's so much negative with the car.  My van is okay now, it's dented and rusty, but it still runs
• Sleeziness is just real with these car companies, but I still like going out and driving
• My view count for xanga went up, thanks, folks!
• Yeah, I tweeted Party Time Escastacy, and even right now, the fun doesn't stop, because am playing basketball soon again  *shrugs*
• CLC service was awesome the other day, mainly because it improved my mental health!  The LORD
• Easter presentation at CLC, and it's awesome.  Easter is with Jesus' death and resurrection.  CLC:  Champion Life Centre.  Show up, am Roman soldier (in the act)

• Yeah, it's destructive right now, because am bored
• I think life affects me so much that I have the tendency to think negative
• But it's not altogether bad that I still find walking fun
• I just had realizations yesterday that affected me hard
• Am laying off tv, computer, smartphone for a while
• I know am on the laptop right now, that's because am bored.  lol
• Life has its bad times, and I understand that
• But I wanna keep having good times
• lol
• I think everyone is up on that full life, and maybe that movement rubbed off of me
• I refuse to go with the norm that "This is life."
• I don't altogether like what's going on with culture, because drugs are apparent
• Being healthy and happy are hard, but there's a regimen for it, and am willing to engage with it
• But life is a constant strain

Wow, what a day yesterday.  I was basically out from morning to two in the morning.  I spent like two hundred dollars in two days.

I think life is just funny, because you encounter so many things.  I bought the new Jamie Foxx, and track three features Rawse, and I love his verse.  It's simple, but I loved it.  Even right now, am listening to Triple C's.  But I have my reasons for doing the things that I do, basically because I want reality.

So with this realism coming into effect yesterday, I went to M-Studio last night.  I take the place easy, I didn't wanna go home yet, and I thought I would have fun there, so I went - Mark actually texted me for a time there, and he didn't answer my call, but I was three hours late, but hopefully tonight again.

So M-Studio?  It was fun, I was laughing the whole night, because Archie and his friends were joking around the whole night through acting depicting the lyrics of the songs.

I wanted to relax for this evening, but after my cover charge, Eve asked me how I was doing, and I told her "Fine that am getting better."  I would order Corona with lime, and it was the greatest ever, I think it was Sarah who served me.  My fave now is balut, so I ordered one, and I was like, "Did my chick (bulat) fly off?"  'Cuz it was taking so long.  I couldn't tell with the waitress, but she took it as an offense, but I was just being pushy in a nice way.

When I got my balut, it was great, I had salt with it and everything.

Right at my entrance, I was requested with an Eric Clapton song with "Wonderful Tonight."  I was discouraged when no one was cheering, but at the end, I had a lot of claps, so I hope I did well.

I was basically partying for this night.  Archie asked me about Rico, am like, "Huh?"

All eyes were basically on me, because a lot were looking at me.  But it was pure jokes, and hung out by the bar, and I had to order coke at the end, because I didn't wanna be driving tipsy.

There was a girl hook-up, but I didn't pursue it, am like, "Money first before women."  LOL!  But wow, she was really pretty.  Fit girl, you know?

• I heard a few people might directly tell me that am hurting, thus, the Kim-Eminem song
• I was really having problems today, and am finding out now that it`s the molding of God
• I didn`t go to Square One rather I went to Yorkdale mall
• I bought a book on how to make video games, and I love it
• Just really dealt with struggles in my life, it was severe that I was looking for a hiking trail at the escarpment thinking the nature would help
• I don`t know what`s gonna happen the rest of the day, am just dealing with this molding of God 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AYKMRY5Rr9I

All I can basically do is sigh.  Life's tough.  I had some messed up dreams with Pacquiao, and am like, "What was that?"  Woke up, and right away, "Am bored."

Just depending on God, because the day's gonna be boring.  Am planning Square One, and am getting a massage.

Am going for Timmy's too, and I hope the coffee will serve me well.

But it's just stupid right now, it's really boring.  I hope I can get the book by O'reilly "Design Pattern", because it's in the seams of computer programming.  And I feel like coding.

I started having carpal last night due to the excess play of Starcraft 2, and I think I know how to medically treat the injury, wrist curls with the dumbell!

Watched one soloist in American Idol last night, and it was the Mexican guy, and I wanna get Elton John's greatest hits, they're going for eight dollars at Wal-Mart.

Singing wise, I hope I'll do better.  I don't take it seriously enough that I gotta make it broadway, but sometimes, I do get request, and sometimes, I do consider what people think of it.  Everyone makes fun of me singing Lionel Richie.  And with all the laughter, I started thinking that maybe I have to sing like Marvin Gaye (at least the technique), but it's hard, because I've been singing like this for the longest time, and to switch styles would be difficult.

But it's tough, because all these talents have to be in business deals.  I was jotting down notes last night, and these words came out for business:  Writing.  Photography.  Music.  Cook.  Programming.  Marketing.  Sales.

I mean, I can't just focus on the craft, I gotta focus also on making money.

So I don't know how my life's gonna turn out.

• Dealt with Moses' life, and at first, he thought he was The Man, but when God called him forty years later, he was like, "Who am I?"
• Peter felt the same way of being "The man", but after all the failures, he started relying on God
• So as I approach this day, it's God's "I Am Who I Am"
• God's sufficient in our circumstances
• Am planning mall today and Tim Horton's, and it's His "I Am"

• People in the Bible never says "Please!" but "Thank you, God!"
• Knowing God and independence of Him is key!
• Thanking God receives peace which passes all understanding!
• Jesus fed 5000 people over a boy's lunch who was persistent with Jesus!
• The Bible's great!

• Precautions with a rush, because opponents were scouted
• A rush is when you make enough armies to attack early in the game
• My teammates were great, creative enough to do drop offs, meaning sky units having located spots (for the drop offs)
• With this drop offs, marines and sieged tanks were used to get rid of buildings
• The green opponent was the hardest, because of his knowledge to which armies are used in crucial situations
• The game ended when I air attacked the green expanded command centre
• Early in the game was shaky because I had to protect both front and back for possible land and air attacks
• This game was planned mainly for rush