Wow, where do I begin?  I have this habit of probably being too supportive to people.  I know people look to examine what I have learned in life, and into the thick of things, you see the real value of matters.  And just like what Lil' Wayne said of his business life, "It's not safe."  It is hard, it is tiring, I mean, I don't see altogether as perfect, I mean, there's been instances driving on highway 401 where I was gonna sleep on the steering wheel.  I was told one time that "Everything is dangerous."  I don't get much sleep sometimes, and sometimes, I can't sleep either where my doctor has asked me repeatedly how my sleep was.

The situation with my doctor?  I don't know his practise all that much, because I haven't really familiarized myself with the medical world.  I do touch on health, I do like being healthy, but I've also came across a truth that the hospital is not Care, it's critical, meaning, when you're admitted in the hospital, you're basically losing a bit of your life.  My wisdom is that, before the hospitalization, you should take care of yourself.

With Dr. Johnson, yes, because I've been hospitalized numerous times in my early twenties, and he has asked me the same question over and over again, and I realized that his questions are viable, important, and essential.  Because I do have to sleep well, I do have to eat well, I do have to concentrate well, and I do have to energize well.  And I think at this point, it's all about survival, because as I keep going through in life, the suffering continues, and the issues occur.  And while in his office, am a struggling person, but I can also see it in himself.  I think world-wise, I mean, Japan alone right now, the country was great economically, but with the earthquakes, a lot have died, and a lot are suffering right now with lack of comfort.

So I just got off Indigo right now over reading a few pages of Russel Peters biography!  I know life is much more than this, but I do deal with bookstores.  I think the dude's so funny that even his serious statements are funny.

I didn't read the book that much, because I kinda' know him from his stand-ups.

But the weather's warm that I prefer yesterday's cool temperature, I didn't like going out right away when I wasn't wearing shorts.

• So I admit that I have trouble sleeping, and this was apparent again last night were it was dawn, and I was still awake
• Tonight, am gonna sleep better, because am better mentally that I made adjustments, 'cuz sleeping's so hard
• Just got off of practice, and the whole thing was tiring
• Tired and bored, and I have nothing to do now
• I wanna watch Arthur, and I can't find it online that it's ten-fifteen this evening at AMC
• Basically listfully blogging, 'cuz my views are going up for this blog
• Just have no aim in life, hard to call life, you know?
• I think what's destructive is that, you work hard resulting a fatigue experience, and nothing happens
• I just hope my singing will do well, because I worked my butt off tonight, and I was so tired
• Hopefully, next year, there'd be a Europe trip, and I really wanna take pictures, and I hope that'll do well too
• So I dunno, I guess am looking for success, lol

So I guess a pat on my back for increased views, lol.  No, I can't really compliment myself, because it does take work to the point of supernatural.  Like this evening, I was asked with how things should go with a girlfriend, and there was a series of statements, but ultimately, I said, "I don't want a farm girl."  I never planned that statement, but we were laughing.  Yeah, numerous times tonight, the "girl" was talked about, and it was in a way where my statements were not promising that they were negative.

Should I talk about it now?  Thing with marriage is that, you can't put too much hope on it, why?  Because it's no little heaven.  Marriage doesn't change lives, it's still the same processes in life, and it's still a challenge that you have to be happy in life.

The great thing with this evening was that, I was able to go downtown Toronto happy that the weather changed, because I was only wearing a sweater.  Thing with this cool weather was that, if I had worn a thick jacket, it'd ruin the situation, because I'd be perspiring.  The sweater was just perfect for the situation.

The whole evening was fun.  It was Katrina's (Ruiz) birthday, and it was at Peritot(?) did I spell it right?  Just an awesome time.

I think what's gonna happen now is that, am gonna deal with another day tomorrow.  This day was all perfect in a sense where I had my fun bitsy, because I was able to test drive my dad's car around Airport Rd. and everything.  But life's hard, I think the tiresome involved can really affect how you see things.  Even right now, I don't want to lay down, because it's gonna be problematic, lol.  Being awake is better, lol.

But walking around Toronto was great.  I had a bit of time to kill before dinner started, and I stopped by SunRise where they were selling used cds for cheap price, and yup I saw The Neptunes with all the featured artists, and I loved it in my van - good tunes.

The right temperatured air was legit this evening, I parked three blocks away from the restaurant, and did it on purpose, because I wanted the outdoors, and my plan worked.  My friends weren't really into the idea, because they had to walk that long stretch.  Lol, am just so into walking, whole thing was amazing!

The restaurant was this contemporary set up, and I tried being social, and tried cracking up jokes.  But it was more of a wait, because food was long, but I had some good conversations.  I think with conversations, your thinking gets challenged.  Because I was told that travelling alone can be a luxury, so am like, "I can go to Europe alone."  But it's more thinking, the mentality can be business oriented, and coming home, "Where can I work hard to get business deals in a good way?"

I can probably just keep going with this, because a lot has happened during this day.  I can't paint everything into words as I would love to do, but wow, a lot happened from spiritual to financial.

I ended up buying a book over a visit to the mall - Yorkdale mall - am basically up there regularly, because I think the mall's awesome.  It was actually amazing, because am there from ten a.m. to one in the afternoon, and it was pure fun.  I just love the vicinity that walking is awesome.  My stops are ALDO, Tip Top Tailors, HMV, Apple, but the main dish is Indigo.

A lot happen when am walking around, I find it refreshing that it really brightens my ideas in life.  Classic example was with Indigo that I was able to find an awesome book.  The author is Mr. Dickey who is from Tennesee, and it was the book cover which drew me in, because am into photography, and I thought the picture had Von Gohg taste in it.  I read the first book with a little than twenty pages, and the second was purchase mainly because it was affordable.

Taco Villa was great that I was able to order a chicken fajita.  And The Bay was awesome that I was able to spray John V (artisan) which am planning will be my next cologne, scent's awesome.

Had a cup of coffee between breaks, and am drinking it walking around the parking lot with the awesome weather with the sun all out shining, the extra large size didn't hurt either, Hehe.

I usually think of things and people when am going for walks.  I think of people I meet, and this time around, I was thinking a lot about the church.  There's so many factors, because my hang out is not always at the church, like last weekend, I was at M-Studio Friday and Saturday nights.  But this weekend, I have a five o'clock singing practise, and that there'd be a performance on Sunday, so adjustments have to be made.  I think about the effectiveness.  I think it's vanity when you're just doing the things you're doing for the sake of it.  Even at M, am requested to sing, and I really try to connect, I even have it that there should be a response from the crowd.  To get the attention, am willing to act goofy, lol.  I think it's harmful when you're just walking around, and standing around in life.

Am pretty much sure that this is in everyone's thoughts, I mean, we're only human beings.  But sometimes, I just get into stimulating stuff that the enjoyment overrides the negative part of life.  Enjoyment is great, because the purpose is there - I think - I mean, it's not perfect.  Not everyone at the mall are giddy, I mean, I see the sad people there.  But I understand, everyone has issues.

So the mastery of the web was tested last night.  Being online for so long, I think ten years now, has me trained how the web works.  I think my hefty play with SC2 really opened my eyes to how the web works.

At this point, am still in a process, and just getting messages out, I think that's the most important thing, because there's a lot of medium for it.

I even bought an Android in to influx this message driven profile I have.

I think what's intimidating with web business is that, only celebrities get massive views.  But I think there are ways to make your profile catchy, I've switched my blog from Facebook to here in Xanga, and am getting good views, I mean, it's not in the hundreds, but it's a start.

The web just has a lot of medium that there's really room for improvement (and success).  So I hope today will have doors open.

I mean, it's in a way where I've asked users what they would wanna see on my writing, and I got a wide array of it that am just gonna do my thing.

I think knowing photo shop won't hurt either.  I think graphics and design are important, I cringe, I hope am there for the success.

For the unfamiliar, I have been attending the church for two years now.  This is much more of a promotional entry, I can write much more substancial part, but as a start, as an intro, no pun intended, I will touch bases with CLC - Champion Life Centre.

Why champion?  It did boggle me at first when I saw the name, but it is that in its simplest form.  Obviously, we're in an age where sluggish roam around the vicinity, and what championship is asking for is to be responsible with what you have to do.  "Champions" is addressed to the congregation periodically, and if you get to know the people, they are champions.

What's impressive with Champion Life Centre is that, it's not all business, but also a place where you can inherit true friendships.  People are simple yet who will deal with your life.

I encourage you to show up at the vicinities, because it is a place(s) where your talents and labour don't go to vain.  Even me writing this myself is confident that it will not go in vain.  Whatever expertise you have to build its developments, it will have an impact where it's headed for positive.

This is the website of church, www.championlifecentre.ca

What I normally do when am there is say Hi to a few people, and deal with the festivity, because what you buy is worth it.  Lately, I've been going with their food, and there's a lot of delicious dishes for only five dollars.

What doesn't hurt either is that it's easy to find parking.

It's a fun time, you socialize yet be lead to God, and musically, it's in this rejoicing and almost partying spirit you have when the performances are being ran - so it's a good time.

• This business thing can be annoying
• I have a story for business over skimming through my Android with Facebook's News Feed.  Well, a few reports came out, and work, work, work for a push in business.  The other report was that Facebook was gonna have a page for journalist, I quickly joined that it's in my profile.  I've dealt with Web activity for the longest time now, I mean, even my SC2 games are done online, and all I can say is that I've suffered.  So when Facebook Journal asked the question what I would want to gain from this?  I replied, "The world."  That's the main thing, I feel web business is such a struggle that aiming high in gaining the world will some how make it meaningful.  Because achievements don't even make people happy, so just gain the world,
• I dealt with some prayers just now, and I told God that I was addicted to youtube.  I lay off of the computer due to tiredness, and in bed, all I could think about were Dave Chappelle excerpts that I basically dove in into my Android for a youtube experience - again
• I think the world is just dangerous because information can be received so fast and easily, I think they said that trillions of information are being passed on the web daily, and I have no problems with that, it's just, the fatigue does set in.  With my case, addiction and fatigue both set in, and I hate it.
• But the world is really business minded, am just coming home from Tim Horton's, and they're setting the prices higher, I love my coffee, and that I hope they keep the prices reasonable
• The other business report I read had Oprah attached to it, and am not a big fan of Oprah, I rarely watch her shows, but I do respect her money.  But when I think of wealth, I also think of health, and I've seen her in the past when she's this person lacking of sleep, looks destroyed and all that.  I understand she's from a big city, but just because she's grandeur in wealth doesn't mean that she's the optimus prime example of what a normal North American citizen should be.  But I understand people have needs, and the need for achievements is an issue, because our lives do need stimulation, I mean, you can't just do the same things all the time that it's gonna affect your happiness.  But there are factors, and am not heated for a debate for it
• So that's the problem, health or wealth? 

Tired.  I just spent, and still spending, the last hour on youtube.  I played a game of SC2, and it was madness, and I didn't even have an opponent fighting.  It was uncanny, because am trained, through playing a lot of games, to just work right away.

I might need a new video game.  SC2 is great, but the malady of it is that, it becomes unpredictable.  I think I will always love the game.

But with games, I saw Kill Zone 3, and I thought about getting it, because it's a different form of playing.

With games, am not trying to be number one anymore, because I learned it in SC2 that there's too many good players.  I checked the ladder, and apparently, the number two guy is a filipino.

I think SC2 is so broad that you have to be in communication with teamates, and really see where buildings and units are going.  I see Billups with the Knicks, and he does through a lot of planning through communication.  I think strategizing is great.  The game is great that you can be creative about it.  You can have seiged tanks parked in certain areas, and really get an edge by winning toe to toe meetings.

So I have internet connection now, actually something severe happened to my connection that the whole thing had to be revamped.

What can I say with the virtual world?  Am just pushing for business terms.  Virtually, things are hefty, I even have a smartphone which virtuals me all the time.

The computer screen did affect me though that I had to go out, and deal with physicality.  I hate the bright screen, lol.  But the virtual world is good to put products out, but am not sold out for it.  I understand that it's very liquid that things can get done at a faster rate, but something about it that I don't like.

I could've stayed home tonight for a basketball game on tv, and I didn't like it, my wisdom told me that I had to go swimming, I went, and I hope the whole thing was beneficial.

Am really trying to be street.  I noticed that people became successful with a street mentality.  Am reading Watch You Bleed with The Guns N' Roses, and they're basically punks in L.A. when they're trying to push for music.  I think they're on a good plight, because up to this day, I still listen to Appetite for Destruction, and that album is over twenty years old.  I hope my life will be like that, am very tempted to just get a job for the money.  But to produce a material that will have timeless effect, I think it's much more great whereas with money, it's consumed in a few days.

Am a bit involved with music that am with church activities with the praise and worship, and this could be a plight where I can excel at it.  Am trying hard that am trying my best, but I hope a good thing comes out of it.  At this point, a lot of confusion circulates it, because my hero is Axl Rose, but at the same time, heroic stuff goes out of the window when it comes to church terms, because it is all for God.  If the church is full, and people like the renditions, it's all for God.

And I can't flabbergast with Guns, because they are just human beings.  Sometimes biographies are so interesting that it can create a thinking that these people had full lives.  Slash mentioned in his book that it was all wisdom which prospered him, simple statement, but I was in awe about it, and am going looking for wisdom.

GNR did it with music and lyrics.  Some of what Axl Rose said in Chinese Democracy does melt my heart.  A lot of his lyrics are like that actually recalling "Don't Cry", "November Rain".  I think it's special, and it's in a way where the relating part is food for the soul.