• So yesterday was tiring that I lost weight this morning - by checking the mirror
• I didn't know it was a snow storm until I started driving on the road
• Visited my psyche yesterday, and I don't know what it is, but it's a check up
• Went to The Bay after @ Erin Mills Towne Centre, and the John Vasatos cologne is so purchasable!
• I wanna work at The Bay, too!
• The Alexandra Stan song is growing on me that am going back to my roots with Rihanna's Good Girl Gone Bad!
• American Idol was bananas that it lead me to acting quirky at home, that Lionel Richie's "Hello" was on the soloist!
• Starcraft 2 as usual, and am winning, because of a certain technique
• My lower back is just sore from shovelling, but good exercise nevertheless

With SC2, am usually nervous when I play the game.  I think what makes the game more intense is that, there's just too many mean people online,  I've won my last two games mainly because, I got an application on my Android basically explaining what a Terran strategy should be.  I've been dealing with these stats for a while, and just following them now.  What's amazing is that, it really works.  The success didn't really make me happy, because when I read the instruction, it was visually there that I could picture it keenly, and almost make my moves predictable.

I respect these strategies so much, because it is rare that Starcraft 2 players would talk about.  Usually, people will just go for mass and then attack, but with these, it's building in a way to be effective.

My day today went really fast that am sorta' in disbelief that it's already midnight.  Shoveling the snow was difficult, but I kept pushing, and I did three trips today finishing them all.

It was basically music galore today to keep my sanity, I had Alexandra Stan playing so much in my head, even right now, am still looking for her music.  At first, I thought she sounded like Rihanna, and yup, on youtube, she's doing Rihanna renditions.  But the material (craft) of this song was just nice.

So walking is such a big part of my life now, I plan and really push myself for it.  Am trying to do different locations that yesterday and this morning, I was in downtown Milton.  Walking is all right, but when the fatigue sets in, it can be a struggle.  My one hour walks are great, but the last thirty minutes, it's not for pleasure anymore, where basically it is a war where am just trying to make it home.

I would sing while walking, and it's a great technique to make the walk bearable, because without mind stimulation, it can be boring, and quitting is done after five minutes.  But I have nice tunes, and the ordeal is pleasurable.

I think there's just so much into life where I realized today that exericise is life, because you need different activities where right now, am basically dealing with swimming, running, walking, aerobics, push-ups, plyo, because too much of sameness can be boring, and the body feels unhealthy, deep down, I wanna do more, lol.  I used to think that it's the cool, fresh air outside that would alleviate the walk, but there's a lot into exercises, and it's really a fight for happiness.  I find the whole thing odd.

Life's dangerous that even being here on the computer is not the most inviting thing ever.  I think the creativity for outdoors and being active about it is crucial.

My mind does think what different ways I can deal with the outdoors, because walking is too common.  I just need that activity where it's gonna be appetiting and basically am salivating.

I tried watching a couple of movies last night, and Due Date had its moments, but movies are not the end meets of things.  Acting is not even the means of things, because it's basically the person's way of life, with Due Date, I thought they were promoting marijuana, and I can really say that it's a progranda, because the substance is legal, and you have this actor saying all kinds of good things about it.  It's an interesting movie, because there's cultural shift about it, am first introduced with this character over Hangover, and I would see a couple more movies of his, but he dominated this movie where the co-actor, who is prominant, was basically third wheel.  Cleanliness will always be a virtue, I guess getting the message that marijuana is good was the movie's total message.  I thought it was creative that they tried to be articulate about it.  Once again, it's a movie based on products, and America's goal is to make sales out of these.

So my week would be activious, I have three gatherings to meet up that I usually occupy my week all for myself.  There's two meetings and am not really sure their purpose, but the last one on Saturday is Wild Wings for my friend's birthday party.

Meetings are geeky for me, because I do try to figure out why they're there and stuff.  My understanding with life is that not a lot happens, I was basically contemplating on how to put out a good show, and I kinda' figured that it's better to be in person.  Meaning, you don't need a stage or platform for casts to deal with a performance.  There's actually a lot in marketing and business that are learned, because am dealing with Sienfeld, and I figured that this sitcom marketed stories based on nothing, the show's overall plot was nothing.

So with meetings, it makes me wonder the set up, and I think gatherings are advantagous when there's a forward motion for it.  Everybody loves a purposeful life.

Yesterday, I drank overall four extra large regular coffee, and guess what, at three in the morning, I was wide awake.  I recognized that I needed a healthier diet, so at seven in the morning, I was already at Wal-Mart taking Sunkist oranges.  I think oranges are great for fighting off chemicals, but it's okay.

My day was long yesterday that highway 401 was challenging in the evening.  Driving back home was great, because tp2.com was great!  I've been dealing with soul music for a while now, I was playing D's greatest hits that the love for music heightened.  Soul notes are great, and the singing is great, and I just love the emotion of the song.

Dealt with two church services yesterday, and both were identical.  Am around Toronto for the second service that I make the trip, because there's a lot of time.  So it's in a way where am awake seven in the morning and getting home one a.m.  With all the businesss, I do study business, it's just this path to making some income.  I think the need for an interesting life demands a well incomed life so am always thinking of ways to get income.  I come across businesses both highway and inroads, and I study what they serve.  But being busy helps, so far, in many terms, my profiles for facebook and xanga had come hefty.  But I keep thinking that the job I'll probably get is packaging, am on for this writing business, and even photography, but I don't think it's routable, I've been adviced to keep going down the road to which I placed my goals in.

For ideas, venues I take part in are movies and music.  Musically, what was funny was that they had a remix on Barbara Striesand with Charlie Sheen replaced as the name.  Barbara came out of Oprah few years back with the problematic life, and I was young then that I thought it was a normal thing, Charlie Sheen remixed, I understood what the ramifications were, my mom brought up the story (with him) and it's that, it's a man trying to get his job back.  With the radio station, I thought it was just uncanny to align both people at the same realm, I was shocked with the message, because it is an indication with the problems they had addiction or financially.

With all the fast information by technology now, the world is really small.  I followed the ongoings in Japan, and every day I hear about it, it's an up to date news, and the developments are keen, and the nuclear plant being broken causes an uncomfortable to viewers.  I study news reporters, and they're usually giddy for news, but after hearing this devastation especially with the nuclear plants, based on my read, the gentleman was not comfortable with his position in his life.  True stories do the inevitable of changing our so called good lives.  I think one can come out happy and stable, but when news like this become comprehended in crystal clear form, the stability is dislodged.  And personally, it's everyone's struggle, because we all think we deserve a good life, and we've battled for years to have a decent life, but problems don't stop coming, there's always occurances which affect the good life.

Smokin' Aces (part 2) was watched last night, and I thought the movie was good, the diaglogues were just hard to read where it was hard to see where the story was headed.  I think what dominated this movie was action, you basically sympathize with the plot based on characters' action and behaviour to each other.

But fun night with people, there was a practice play, and I was invited for a rehearsal, and I ultimately declined, because I don't know what to do with plays.  I was on the pews, and am like "There must be a way to act great."  I kinda' figured that it'd by the musical involved in the acting, it's not solid proof, but I noticed with plays is that, it's just acting, there's no rivet, no capturing moments.  I think capturing moments doesn't just begin in emotional and lovely ways, I think horror is an element which has value for a capture.  For a Roman soldier, am basically doing Ric Flair moves, and it was taken seriously that I was mislead for beating up Jesus.

Then massive dinner at the filipino restaurant, I neglect it, but I think filipino food are the greatest.  Periodically, I go to filipino eatery sari-sari style, and I don't know if it's the culture, but I feel I can stay there the whole night.  For my next sauce, on the sliced bbq pork, am dealing with chili.  Yup.  I got it from my grandfather, I remember him just eating it fresh, and am like "Thumb's up."  I tried it the next day and wondered how his tongue could try it.  But with hot sauce, I really started late, but now, I really look for it.  I think it makes the food challenging to the point where it makes your life interesting, lol.

Terrence liked my personal individual entry, so I figured that I would do more of that.

Thoughts with topical life ongoings?  My family, me and my parents really, was able to ride on a Hyundai Elantra, and I was excited to be able to drive the car.  Am into cars basically for its performance.  But the driving was done after I had a good game with SC2.  So incomparison with car and SC2, nothing beats SC2, while at the car, I was getting angst with my situation basically just roaming around the city.  I can't altogether complain, because being in the car was relaxing, and I am concerned with having an acidic and alkalaine ratio-ed body,  'Cuz if it's acidic, it's cancer.

The drive was just long that I was getting really uncomfortable in the car, the car is pretty good, I sped it up to one-twenty, and it's got good acceleration.  My mom and dad are excited with the new car - it's really Sonota - but we're having Elantra first for the preparation of higher end car.  The car's needed, but I understand the responsibility of driving a car.  But it's okay, life continues on.

My dad was at the back on the phone talking over qualms with church related stuff.  I've grown to take church easy, because it can be problematic, since childhood, all I hear of churches are problems.  I think people recognize my Christianity, and I do get assigned for certain ministries, but I also live a life which is somewhat distant - I think.  I think the judgement is just strong in churches, I think it's in a way where it's cold blooded that you can't function like a human being.  I understand sins and such, but am not gonna come out holy, and greatly righteous.  I've actually distanced myself from a lot of functions.  I remember playing basketball in a three-on-three tournament, and someone was getting mad about me for being to aggressive, thing was, they didn't know I just came off of a rugby game and some practices.  I think our backgrounds really affect how we treat society.  I think the more social and outgoig we were, we see the world in its purist value.  And I've come across conversations where the stories are shocking.  I've learned that there are go-getters in this planet.  I think it's great to hear people who faces their fears, I mean, I don't even care if it's right or wrong, I just love scary moments.

But that's it, right now am gonna sad.  I think it's saddening that I always lose in SC2,  But overall with life, it's hard that the pain involved can make me sad.  I think life needs escatacy that the lack of it can be limiting and yup, frustrating.  But am okay, I can always lie down and just listen to music.  I think just getting into theraputic stuff is great.

There's a lot I can say with life, and it might be all opinion, but it's a generational thing, and that generation is targeted to us.

I presume that a lot know about it, I even heard on the radio that young people don't get married anymore over what they saw among their parents.

Relationships to me are oxymoron, meaning, what's supposed to be really good becomes disadvantage.  Now, am not criticizing marriages at all, I even support it.  It takes perseverance and character to keep a marriage going.  'Cuz we're in a spending spree environment, and finance is the number one reason for divorces.  I won't go into details, but if both spouses like to spend, they're just gonna hurt the relationship, because money will run out.

I have a fella and we talk a lot about things, and he's getting into an intimate relationship, I point this out, because the reactions are interesting.  I don't entirely give out advices, what I do with friends is just lay out the credentials, lay out the picture.  Because I understand that situations don't have to be perfect to be pursued, worldly, there are people who have pushed through even in the most difficult times.

Am thinking of Russel Brand and his approach to women.  I basically bought his book, because he's British, and I have a love for them which is uncanny, I love their English, and I love how they explain things.  Booky Wook is an advanced book that I've read a couple chapters several times.  I think the man's presence is great, I've seen him in talk shows where he basically upgraded the appearance, and had everyone laughing.  So yes, Katy Perry.  I don't know the woman altogether, I just knew she had a couple of songs mainstream.  But when I did get to see her, she was this beautiful woman, so why Russel Brand?  Because some can be alarmed by his past with addictions, drugs, and promiscuity.  And am gonna say this, it's because of his English.  Am not gonna be argumentive, because it's not a big deal.

Am pointing this out, because what element does it take to survive a marriage?  I remember the percentage of divorce was at thirty percent, and that was a few years ago, now it's really fifty, fifty.

So my scope lowers on these factors.  I was at a wedding, and an elder asked me why I wasn't married.  Even right now, for sure I would get that question, because I am thirty two.  I didn't altogether say what my reasons were, but I said, "Money".  But if I have to relate everything of what I think of marriage, it can probably cause a debateable response, and madnening reality.  But issues like boredom, time, sensitivity, knowledge, wisdom, consideration, parenting, these all conjure to affecting how the marriage is gonna be.

Am talking in this language, because I have lost a lot of women in the past, and I used to be a cry baby over it, but with all the pain, it brought me to my senses, and I started thinking what ways did I drive the girls away?  I try to be tic-tac-toe about it, but even right now, am not confident with marriage, and I've decided that singlehood is the best thing for me right now.

I think with women, you also have to deal with their lives.  You have your own set of problems, guess what, the woman has hers too.  I remember a co-worker at Xerox where he explained that one night his wife was crying at the edge of the bed, and he didn't bother consoling her or anything, because life's too problematic that being himself was already hard enough.

I was with a relationship based on online activity, and through all the conversations, I have learned that there's a lot of demands.  I learned that I would have to be a good cook.  And am like, "I don't really cook, and am not the best cook in the world."  'Cuz yes, women love food.

Marriage is actually dangerous, because you would have to be a good parent, you have to be a good entertainer, you have to have good attention span, you have to be a quick learner, you have to love learning.

My thrill is Starcraft 2, where is that gonna be placed on a woman?

Am basically home, 'cuz am out of money for the rest of the month.  Kinda' tired, I played several SC2 games, and that caused a fatigue.  Demoralizing?  :)

I hate it when am bored, and I love it when am challenged.  I think being thirty two has changed a lot of spectrum in my life.  I've learned that you just have to go through challenges in life, because otherwise it can be boring which is destructive.  I won a game in SC2 so easily that it gave me problems, but when I lost, I loved it, because the challenge is there.

So am approaching my functions in life now in challenging ways.  When I think of it, everything is challenging, and that's enough of a life which is away from boredom.

Me and my parents are just coming back home from Hyundia auto dealer, and yup, my dad's bought a new car.  It's a Sonota, and right away, I couldn't drive it.  What was messed up was, the brand new was sitting in the parking lot ready to be picked up, we go into the office, and we totally find a better brand with red colour, and awesome rims.  Am not sure if my parents will give it issues, but I thought that car was really decent.  My dad was talking sun roof, and he apparently is not into it, I love sun roof's that may be for my own on my own car with my own terms,  It's cool with these challenges, because am really up for life now, and I learned it in Starcraft 2!

So I have the latest Vanity Fair edition, and I would periodically buy this magazine mainly because for the frikkin' love of it.  With this edition, I just noticed that there was an improvement, I don't know what it was, may be it was the spring season, but I've bought edition with Monroe's cover, Clooney, but this particular one covered so much interesting items.  Right now, I just finished JFK's girlfriend's story, and am about to move along the story of Twitter's owner.  Having those two finished, I would then go to Iran's nuclear plant being hacked, so great articles, right?  :)

I don't know the Kennedy's fairly well, I just know that the President hung out with Monroe, and all that stuff, there's even conspiracies that he drugged Monroe to death.  But what was catchy with this story was, JFK Jr. may have died on his own too adventurous personality.  Because I do remember the plane crash which the radar/statellite didn't see, and with this Vanity Fair story, the man took adventure to new heights.  I was surprised with the girlfriend's story that while in Jamaica, a lover jumped off a cliff with her boyfriend sailing away, another incident was, two lovers jumping off the same cliff with the relationship threatened to be seperated.

With these stories, I speculate how that plane crash occured, because the article vehemently says that his own will killed himself.  I have heard of stories of people ending their lives like this, because we live in a society where it's so protective.  But I think this type of personality is a lost art, we're in an age where it's just drinking, lewdness, and party, and to read something else like a JFK is refreshing, and the article was thoroughly enjoyed.

That Vanity Fair was bought in Square One's Wal-Mart.  And my walk around the mall basically ached my body, because am wearing these boots without the ortho insoles.  I basically gave up on Square One, because my knee started to hurt, I was there for more than an hour though.

But with all the activities, time has gone off so fast, it's now quarter to two, where I started this day really early, I was already walking in Square One before the stores opened.  My locale was basically Tim Horton's, Square One - Central Mississauga.  But music really dominated this day, I kept thinking Casablanca, because they played the Americana song on Z103.5, and I thought it's a song which fits a lot of functions in the world.

But no big deal, I wanted to watch the movie Casablanca over various thinking with that song in memory.

I think it's just so funny that life has no manual.  It's funny for me, individually, that am never pleased with what I do.  Am keen on guidances on my life, and have just about read books to its pursuit.  But at this stage of my life, my mind is always on business, mainly because I strongly feel that money is needed.  But you know, when am on business, my mind will be back to recreational.  Life really has no manual, when I blog, am just gonna deal with past experiences, because that's the most stern thing about me.  But writing in terms of present and future, like wow, I never know what's gonna happen.

Waking up this morning, I wanted to play some Sim City 2, but am I gonna play it?  I think exploration is good that maybe am on this writing for a safe journey, may be not,   I do like watching my ratings go up over written blogs.  I guess it's just internet business, and the marketing involved with it.  I think production will always be interesting.  So am gonna keep writing, and hopefully, people will visit, and it will leave a memorable thought to people,

Last night was really simple though I had health problems.  Around midnight, I still wanted to go out, but I realized that all I had to do was listen to music.  Because when I go out, I still deal with music.  So I had Q-Tip playing, I had Rick Ross playing, and it sufficed the evening.

This day becomes unpredictable, because I don't even have any activities to do.  The best I can do is write, and go for a walk, and once again, back to music.

Yesterday was great that I was able to walking in Burlington Mall, which was about half an hour away, with my parents.  The stores which triggered me?  I was keen that am like, "All the stores are for women, and I assume electronics are for men."  When am in these walks, I think about people I encounter over the weekend and what not.  I dealt with an employee at M-Studio over the weekend, and he's basically labeling a lot of "You're stupid."  I mean, man is blunt and frank.  I was thinking that may be his statements would drive away customers, but more or less, the evening was safe.  He did call me stupid for my little gesture on stage that he got up to leave, but he didn't know people were applauding me.  I know business is hard, and am not saying am fixed, but I do engage in things which strengthen my marketing abilities.  I think I can only give out a product, and it's up to people to like it or not.  At the same time, I do believe that my products are good.  Take this writing for example, you can be political about it, and biased, but deep down, I feel it's a good blog.

I've already blogged at Facebook pertaining my whereabouts over the weekend, but I must say this time around that even though I want to write, I can't muster anything (for a material.)

I think what's discouraging is that I've just been trying to be sane.  I think the celebratory life is gone, and that was the life I was pursuing the most.

My mom last night told me "You have a lot of secrets."  I really don't know how to answer life, especially at this point, I have in my room books, and am trying to read them.  ...I still deal with the world that I watch the aftermath of Japan's devastation, and the aerial stuff does open my mind.  At this point, am still learning about life, life just has a lot of obstacles, and through these events, good stories are made out of it.  The weekend was tiring, because being behind the wheel, I had to work hard to survive, because I was really sleepy driving (due to a lack of sleep.)