April 25, 2011

  • Blogging Time

    Perplexed by the weekend.  It was a tiring weekend.  I recovered, 'cuz basically I slept all day.  There's just some principalities going on in my life right now.  I was fine in the morning that I really didn't mind with the fatigue.  But I just had no reason moving forward (in life).  I went to Square One to deal with the world, and go for a walk, because I've been in church from Friday to Sunday.

    Writing is hard when there isn't too much excitement.  I wanted an escatacy feeling at church yesterday, so I tried to be celebratory with the singing.  At the end, I basically got up to dance at the back.

    My friend's went off for Max in Manila (chicken dinner), and I didn't go because I had no money.

    But a lot went through my mind last night.  I went to the altar call, because I had to renew my relationship with the Lord, and it was the same sermon from Saturday yesterday, and it dawned on me that the sermon was for me.  Things just got problematic, because I was back listening to Kells in the van right after that revival.

    But am dealing with the Word again, and not just New Testament, but books of Obadiah, Habbakuk, and am crying because the writings are filled with God's wrath.

    Am basically writing, because I have nothing else to do in life, and that I feel empty, nothing.  I feel unchanged, I feel like I have nothing in life.

    It was our friend's departure on Friday, and I asked her right away "If everything was fine", because a lot of things got handed over to her.  At the start, she was in good shape, and leaving for her flight, she was still in good shape, so that was good.  I think things just become normal that when something severe happens, it can affect you emotionally.  My emotions gripped me while she left, and it wasn't just that situation, but I went through this a lot of times with friends, and it's the whole compact thing that I was singing a techno song "When will you be mine, because I miss you so much, am losing my mind."  It's not even just people in company, but I miss D'angelo, I miss Prince Naseem (his whole presentation in the ring), there were just certain people I missed at that time.  I commented to her with her picture taking, because am going to a trip to Florida this mid-May, and guess what?  Am dealing with Palm Beach here, and guess what?  Now that Mia's gone?  Am not inspired to take these pictures.

    But it's not altogether a sour note, because I will still take pictures, but it won't be hardcore anymore.  My photography really takes the geography of the land environment, but am hoping that I'll be back in that mode, because picture taking does take hard work.

    But it's frustrating here in Milton, am basically dealing with the NBA playoff game with San Antonio and Memphis, but it's not a grand enjoyment, you know?  I really don't know what to do, may be I'll play Starcraft 2, but the night is just not complete.  Yada, yada, yada.